This is the letter I wrote and read to my mother as part of my Step 9 work. In my opinion, my mother and I have had a very strained and painful relationship for many years. My mother’s alcoholism, drug addiction, codependency, prison sentences, and her personal decision to not work through her own childhood trauma and programming made it difficult for her to parent me. I held on tightly to all of the pain and resentment and anger from my childhood for a long time and I treated her badly because of it.
This is the letter I wrote to myself as part of my Step 9 Amends…
I am so very proud of you. You have been brave and vulnerable and strong and weak, all at appropriate times, and this whole process has been beautiful to watch. Thank you. With all of my heart, thank you – for saying “yes,” for taking the journey, for both surrendering and fighting when necessary, and for just being you.